Light Beams

It happened. I knew it would. I thought I was prepared.
She came out of the shower and opened the door.
Wrapped in a towel was my beautiful mom.
All her hair was in the bottom of the tub.
When I say it was a shock, I mean I sucked in air and felt a bit faint.
I started crying. I didn't mean to... I just did. She cried too.
We hugged for a while. Still, I hadn't seen her head yet because it was wrapped up in a towel.
As I prepared myself to look at it, mom said, "This is good. This means I'm going to get better."
Then the towel came off.
I've read so many blogs and articles about people undergoing treatments and how their hair falls out, but no one really puts the actual moment into words. It's terrible, horrifying, and it just plain sucks.
But, at the same time I was in awe. She has such a positive attitude. I hope I can be like her.
We did all this before church this morning. I went to church sporting red-rimmed eyes. She came to church sporting her new wig. She looked beautiful! I mean, really. She smiled and greeted people and sang and listened. I'm telling you, it was amazing. Then, she decided to hang around afterwords and wanted to visit with people and have coffee!
I personally would have run home (if I would have gone out at all) and cried some more.
Anyway, we shall see what this afternoon brings...