The debate is still on. Shave or not. For the past two mornings, she's asked me to comb through her hair and get the "loose" ones. Well, mom, pretty much, they're all loose. Yesterday, I got a pretty decent amount out. This morning, I got probably that much plus a bit more. However, yesterday it was only coming out the top of her head. Today I could "pull" the hair out at the nape of her neck. Didn't even hurt her. No resistance. Big amounts at a time. She asked if it looked alright. Well, mom, yes it does - pretty much. I mean, you've always had really, really thick hair. Now you just look like all the other women that have thin hair. You can see your scalp in some places but you still have pretty much even hair coverage. However, I don't know if I can say that too much longer. She just came in here and said, "You'll tell me when I have to wear a cap or something so I don't look ugly" - or something like that. Oh my goodness mom - you can never look ugly! But yes, I'll tell you. I wonder what she's going to be thinking the first time she wears a wig out in public. Will she be thinking, "I wonder if they can tell?" or "This is too hot" or "I wanna go home" or... Will she even go out? I don't know. I have a feeling that will be next week though. The vacuum is going to be getting a work out. Plus, hair in our food? Yeah, well, 1. It's mom's, 2. It's clean, 3. We didn't pay for the meal, 4. what's a little extra fiber?, and 5. Mom always puts her EVERYTHING in her love for cooking!
She apologized for asking me for asprin. She says she doesn't want to take it from my supply. Dear God. I'd give her every thing I have if she needed/wanted it.
There's so much hair coming out now. It's quite amazing to see her hair coming out by the hundreds, yet she's still got a full head of hair. It's thinning, but still there. I don't know if it will last like that or if she'll go bald. She says it's not bothering her. It's bothering me though. My mom is supposed to look a certain way. I don't want her to change. She's doing this whole thing for her family. I love her for that. Selfless and amazingly strong. She's having a good day today. :)
This whole hair thing is up in the air. She has her hair still. Last time she went to the doctor, she mentioned that her scalp hurt and the doc said that that's a sign that her hair will fall out really soon. Well, I see a few more hairs on her shirt and pillow than before, but for the most part, she's got a full head of hair. She was going to shave it all off last week because it hurt so bad but she changed her mind. Then she was going to have it cut really, really short so that when it fell out, it wouldn't be so bad, but then she changed her mind. I hope it doesn't come out in chunks.
I guess when everything is going well, there's not a lot to write about. So, I haven't said much. I do know that mom's hair is hurting. Actually, where the hair meets the scalp is what hurts. She said she actually can't wait until it falls out if it's going to hurt that much.
To update the hospital incident, she was fine. She just had stomach pain so severe that she couldn't stand up. They took good care of her and she was able to come home after five hours. But, because of the chemo treatments, her veins aren't that great. They tried and tried to give her saline but the iv wouldn't work. She's so bruised up still!
Anyway, today is her second treatment. After this, she'll be half way done. The thing is, it's taking so long. It's supposed to only take about two hours, but we're going on four. I can't go in there and see why. I hope there are no complications. I just worry and worry.
When she gets over being sick the three or four days after the treatment, she is basically "normal". She gets tired, but other than that, not too bad. I hope it continues that way.
